one last look

some part of me is a little sad for the thought of change...i have never dealt well with change. as sophie became part of our family i struggled in letting go of the fact that scott and i would never be scott and i again, we were now going to be three. this man that i love so deeply, i had to share, i had to learn to involve and cherish someone new...perhaps a selfish concept, but one that i struggled with none the less. and now, now as we prepare for this new little life i struggle again. moving from three to four, i wonder about how i will get to spend time with sophie, what about the most important relationship, scott. will we be able to hold onto what we have grown together. will we continue to be strong together, sharing lots of laughter and love. i wonder, i am excited, i am anxious, i face change. bottom line, i love my family, i feel so very blessed by them and through them, and i am preparing to love another, to have my heart captured by another, to add another to our beautiful family of three. photos by Pia Antturi